What We Keep
Margot found the vitamin bottle on her mother's kitchen counter, half-buried beneath unpaid bills and a withered basil plant. The prescription was dated three months ago — her mother hadn't bothered filling it. She stood there in the silence of the empty house, the dog's tags jingling as he nudged her leg, demanding dinner he'd never get from anyone else anymore.
The refrigerator held nothing but a plastic container of spinach gone slimy with age, its edges brown as dried blood. Her mother had been promising to eat better for decades, one of those endless resolutions that dissolved into takeout containers and wine glasses. Now the house felt like an archaeological site of good intentions.
Margot's own hair had been falling out for months — stress, her doctor said, or maybe iron deficiency. She'd found herself running her fingers through it in meetings, counting the strands like rosary beads while her colleagues discussed synergy and bleeding-edge innovation. At thirty-seven, she'd finally made partner, but the achievement felt hollow, like a trophy for a game she'd stopped caring about years ago.
She thought about calling her brother, but he was halfway across the country, building a life that didn't include emergency calls and hospital vigils. Some families had systems for these things. Hers had avoidance.
The dog, Arthur, licked her hand with his sandpaper tongue. He was old now, his muzzle gone gray, his hips stiffening. Her mother had always joked they'd go together, two old ladies and their senile dog. The joke had seemed funnier when it wasn't becoming real.
Margot picked up the vitamin bottle and slipped it into her pocket. She'd fill the prescription. She'd clean out the refrigerator. She'd call her brother. She'd do the things you do when someone's life has narrowed to this: a dying basil plant, a faithful dog, a house full of things that meant everything once and meant nothing now.
Arthur whimpered, sensing something in the shift of her weight, the way her breath hitched. She knelt beside him, burying her face in his fur, and let herself feel it all — the terrible, ordinary grief of things ending slowly, of love that couldn't fix anything, of being the one left to decide what mattered enough to keep.