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The Wellness Regimen

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Margot stood in Julian's bathroom, surrounded by his carefully arranged supplements. The vitamin regimen took up the entire counter—A for immunity, D for bones, B-complex for stress, each in its own amber bottle, alphabetized like a library she wasn't allowed to borrow from. She popped one of his D3 capsules into her mouth, dry, wondering if this was what had come between them. His obsession with longevity, with optimization, with never quite being enough as he was.

She caught her reflection in the mirror. Her hair had started showing gray at the temples last month—silver threads she'd actually liked, reminders of time passing, of real living. Julian had suggested she color it. He'd found a salon that specialized in "restorative color techniques" and sent her the link in a text message, as if her natural aging was a problem to be solved rather than a life to be witnessed.

They were supposed to meet his colleagues at the pool club tonight. Margot hated pool clubs—the artificial turquoise water, the performative leisure, the way swimming became something you did in a bikini while holding a drink rather than something that made you feel alive. But Julian said networking happened there. He said the senior partners liked women who were "easygoing but polished."

A cat jumped onto the vanity—Julian's neighbor's cat, Barnaby, who visited daily through the open window. Margot scratched behind his ears and he purred, a sound more authentic than anything she'd heard from Julian in months. She thought about how Barnaby just was. No supplements, no optimization, no performance. Just a creature being itself, unapologetically.

"You're better at this than I am," she whispered to him.

Her phone buzzed—Julian, reminding her about the reservation. Six guests, sunscreen required, "maybe wear that blue suit that makes you look streamlined."

Margot looked at the vitamins one last time, then at Barnaby, who was now grooming himself with专注. She realized suddenly that she didn't want to be streamlined. She wanted to be gray-haired and wrinkled and real. She wanted to swim in oceans, not cocktail pools. She wanted someone who looked at her aging face and saw a story, not a problem to be solved.

She left the vitamins on the counter. She left Barnaby sleeping in the sunbeam. She walked out of Julian's apartment with her gray hair shining silver in the afternoon light, finally, finally, feeling like herself.