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The Weight of Unsent Letters

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Margaret stood at the security checkpoint, her palms sweating against the polyester of her coat. The orange she'd bought for breakfast sat heavy in her pocket, its waxy skin pressing against her thigh like a forgotten secret. She adjusted the hat—his hat, really, the one she'd stolen from his closet three months ago—feeling the familiar ache settle behind her ribs.

'You're really going through with it?' her sister had asked over coffee that morning, her voice tight with judgment. 'He's not coming back, Mae.'

The security agent waved her through, and Margaret stepped into the terminal where everything was moving except her. Business travelers with purposeful strides, families heading toward Disney, the inevitable tearful goodbyes at gate B14. She found an empty seat and watched a stray cat winding itself around the support pillars of the baggage claim area below, sinuous and unconcerned with human drama.

She pulled the crumpled envelope from her bag, the paper softened from months of being carried, reopened, and refolded. The last letter she'd written to David after the funeral, after the lawyers, after she'd packed away his things and found herself keeping just this hat, this smell of tobacco and cedar that she couldn't quite release.

A text pinged on her phone. Her sister: 'You don't owe him anything anymore.'

Margaret peeled the orange, its bright juice stinging the small cut on her thumb she hadn't noticed until now. The cat below paused to look up at her through the plate glass, amber eyes knowing something she didn't. She thought about the words she'd never sent him, the accusations and apologies that felt smaller somehow, up here at thirty thousand feet of distance from the life they'd built together.

She stood as they began boarding her flight. The hat went into the trash bin. The letter followed. The orange she ate, section by section, letting the juice run down her chin, not wiping it away.

At her seat, she watched the ground crew moving with practiced efficiency, and finally understood something about endings: they didn't require permission or ceremony. They simply were.

As the plane accelerated down the runway, lifting her toward whatever came next, Margaret closed her eyes and didn't look back.