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Elena adjusted the fascinator hat she'd bought specifically for this industry mixer, feeling ridiculous. At thirty-four, she was too young for company that demanded costume, too old to pretend this was anything other than what it was: a room full of predators circling fresh meat.

"You'reholding PUTs on that position?" The man from Lehman sneered, his face flushed with scotch. "That's bull shit, Elena. You're betting on failure."

"Bull markets die with scissors," she said smoothly, though her stomach churned. The phrase was her father's — stockbroker wisdom she'd absorbed like osmosis, never questioning whether she believed it.

She excused herself and drifted toward the balcony, seeking air. Behind her, the party continued: the performative laughter, the calculated charm, the endless vocabulary of risk and leverage and upside that had come to feel increasingly like a foreign language she'd once been fluent in.

The railing was cold. December in Chicago, and she was drinking punch with people who'd probably cost her her bonus by March. Her sphinx of a boss had called her in yesterday, eyes flat, delivering feedback in riddles she was supposed to decode: "Your trajectory isn't aligning with institutional priorities, Elena. Something to consider."

Translation: Find a husband or find a new firm.

She stared at her plate, abandoned on a high-top table. Catered spinach stuffed into pastry shells — tiny, intricate, wasted effort. Like her life these past three years: meticulous preparation for something no one would actually enjoy consuming.

Her phone vibrated. Her mother, again, with another profile of another man whose credentials could be listed in bullet points. Another potential arrangement, another deferred life.

She watched her knuckles whiten against the balcony railing. The absurdity of it suddenly crystallized: she was working herself into an early grave for the approval of men who'd replace her without a pause, for a life she'd never actually chosen.

Inside, someone laughed — the jagged, familiar sound of a deal closing.

Elena smoothed the ridiculous hat, turned from the city lights, and walked toward the exit without looking back.